Winter Holiday is Here

Today was my last day before winter holiday. I am so happy midterms and tests and essays are over because this week has just been sort of stressful. I have two weeks off and i feel like doing something worthwhile with it. I have a giant urge to make a youtube channel. I think I am going to do it. There is nothing to be afraid of. I mean the worst thing that could happen is that someone could tell me I am a terrible singer. That's not to bad. I think the thing that worries me the most is that I have always been a perfectionist and the thought of people judging me and what I do scares me. a lot. It is not only that, but I have been getting a lot of anxiety attacks recently. I think I have just been stressed out lately. I don't know. I usually get them because I think I never have enough time and that quite scares me because if I am like that now in junior high how am I going to be able to balance my APs in high school. I think when i start taking APs sophomore year I am going to get a lot of anxiety attacks and to make life even better i am a major procrastinator so that will probably hurt me a lot. Well to go on a more higher note, one of my best friends drew me a sunflower and it is my favorite flower and it is absolutely beautiful and tomorrow i am going to buy a nice frame to put it in. Also another one of my friends gave me a book called STARGIRL. It is a quite easy read and I am halfway through and it is just absolutely amazing. There is something about the character that I am just drawn to. She is just so carefree and doesn't care about how people view her. I wish I were more like her. Other than that book that I am currently reading and I will probably finish reading after this blogpost, I am going to make a canopy for my bed. I am so excited and I know that it will turn out great. It will be like my safe haven for my anxiety attacks. :) Also this break I want to really focus on my photography and just explore nature and I am so excited to go to LA on the 26th because I am going to go to universal and i am also going to take pictures on the beach. It is the little things in life that make me happy.