The beginning of something new

I can't believe that this year is coming to a close in a day. In this one year I have learned so many things about myself that I hadn't known earlier. I found out that I was a lot more sensitive than I thought and started to take things a lot more personally than I probably should. Words are not just words anymore. They bore themselves into my body and creep up on me when i have time to think. I am always criticizing everything I do and am no longer oblivious to the world. Event though these things are not good and have hurt me in many ways and caused me to keep secrets that i am not strong enough to tell anyone yet, it has also made me stronger. I know that I can survive anything that comes my way. I am fearless. I know though that even though dark clouds may follow me at times there will be a rainbow after the storm is over. I have also learned about what passion is. I have learned and experienced it for the first time. When I write and when I sing I feel as though I am a completely different person. I feel like I can do anything and that in the few moments that I feel that happiness nothing can bother me. Also today I faced my biggest fear. Judgement. The fear that I was just not good enough. I put myself out there and posted my very first youtube video. I feel vulnerable and that people can easily pick on me but I am ready. I am ready to be picked and torn at. I am ready to get out of my shell and grow as a person. I want to hear what people think about me and if I am good enough. 2014. I hope it's my year. I hope I can grow and learn and discover. A lot of things can happen in a year. People change .Things happen. Let's just hope that these things happen for a reason and learn from these experiences. Good luck. We can ride this tidal wave together.